My rating: 5 of 5 stars
The Hard Truth about Sunshine is without a doubt not your typical Sawyer Bennett's book. I know what I'm talking about because I read more than 30 books by her and this one is the most unique story she has ever written. If you've read the blurb you already know the book is a journey. I was a little scared to read it because I'm not usually reading books that involves illness or any form of depression and it was obvious I would have it here, still I was convinced that if there as one author who could push my limits, it would be Sawyer. I love her sport romance, her books involving laws and her hot sexy male so seeing her taking a risk, there was no doubt I would read what she was willing to share with her readers.
As expected The Hard Truth about Sunshine wasn't an easy read but it wasn't terrible either. The main word I feel after reading is hope. This book shows how four people with nothing in common still find their way in this uncommon road trip they were practically forced to take. It shows that no matter what problems you faced, there's a bright side you can choose to see or not. It shows that even if you feel different all the world needs to do is accept who you are and respect the way you feel.
"Jillian makes me want to believe in the possibility of happiness, and I vow to myself that I’m going to have her show me how it’s done."
I don't even feel the need to speak about the different characters in the book, not because there are not worth it, - hell the contrary to be honest! - but because the book is powerful on his own. Each individual in the story face or faced some horrific events. Throughout their trip they will bond even if they don't want to. Each has something to learn or to teach to the others.
It was really a fantastic journey to see them be who they are, what they want, what they fear, what they need, what they love and it was such a delight to see them grow for the best or the worst.
I think everyone who would read it will just keep this story close because truthfully The Hard Truth about Sunshine is one of those books, you can't ignore and I'm so glad I had the courage to read it.
“You’re a cup-half-full kind of girl.”She nods with a smirk. “True.”“I’m a cup-half-empty kind of guy,” I add.“Also true.”“Both of our cups are still missing something.”
~ARC provided by the author in exchange of an honest review~
Jillian holds my gaze for a moment, her eyes drilling into mine before she gently tugs on the material of my jeans near the shin rod of my prosthetic. “What happened to you?” She doesn’t look away. Not down at the fire, not down to my legs. She stares right at me. Although my gut is turning slightly at the thought of telling her what she asked, I forge straight ahead. For the first time, I tell someone who is not medical personnel or a shrink my story. “I was driving a military Humvee and the right front tire ran over a roadside bomb,” I say, and Jillian makes a sound of distress low her in throat as her eyes turn sad. “It completely obliterated my buddy sitting in the passenger seat.” To my surprise, Jillian scoots over closer to me and lays her head on my shoulder. She pushes her hand in between my ribs and my arm, curling her fingers over my bicep. It’s a show of support. Solidarity. That she’s settled in for the long haul of this story, and she wants to hear it all. “It didn’t blow my leg off,” I tell her, and I can feel her body jerk slightly in surprise. Her fingers squeeze my bicep. “The fingers yes, the leg no. It just shattered and shredded it badly, but the doctors tried hard to save it.” “Obviously, they couldn’t,” she whispers the obvious. “They tried for three months,” I tell her, reaching down to grab my phone laying near my left hip. Jillian lifts her head up, watching as I pull up my pictures. I scroll backward, but it doesn’t take long to find what I’m looking for because I don’t take a lot of photos. I hold the phone out so she can see. “This was taken about a month after my injury.” Jillian makes a strangled sound as she looks at the photo of me in bed. My eyes are half open because I was bombed out on so many heavy-duty pain medications, and I have a grimace on my face. I vaguely remember this picture being taken, and I think it may have been by my brother, Hank, when he came to visit once during that first month. He came a few more times after that, and then he didn’t. Jillian’s eyes roam over the photo. My leg is encased in the external fixator with several rods leading from the outside of the cage right into my skin, where it’s drilled through and into the bone to hold the pieces together. The wounds on my leg are all open to the air, red and some of them dripping with puss and lined with blisters. I’ve got IVs in both arms and a PICC line in the right side of my neck to deliver the hordes of antibiotics and pain meds I needed to keep me alive and functioning. I took the maximum dosages they allowed me, preferring to try to be oblivious to what was happening. Yet, the pain was so great it just couldn’t be fully erased. Jillian turns her head to look at me, and I lay the phone back down. “How long were you like that?” “Three months. But they couldn’t get ahead of the infections, which were delaying the bones from knitting. I was in so much pain that I wanted them to amputate.” “You had to make that decision?” she whispers. I nod. “Yup. I mean… the doctors were at the point they felt it was the right way to go, although they were willing to keep trying if I wanted. But I wanted it gone. I was tired of being in the hospital and being in so much pain. I just wanted it gone.” “Do you regret that decision?” she asks me bluntly, but with that still-sweet melody her voice makes. The question doesn’t bother me, because even her hard questions sound lovely. “Yes,” I tell her without any shame. “I wonder what would have happened if I held on just a little bit longer. Not long after the leg came off, the pain receded and I became more lucid. Once I’d forgotten how bad the infections smelled, I regretted it.” “Three months is an awful long time to be in pain like that,” she points out the obvious. I shrug. “And the rest of my life is a long time to wonder ‘what if.’”
Since the release of her debut contemporary romance novel, Off Sides, in January 2013, Sawyer Bennett has released more than 30 books and has been featured on both the USA Today and New York Times bestseller lists on multiple occasions. A reformed trial lawyer from North Carolina, Sawyer uses real life experience to create relatable, sexy stories that appeal to a wide array of readers. From new adult to erotic contemporary romance, Sawyer writes something for just about everyone. Sawyer likes her Bloody Marys strong, her martinis dirty, and her heroes a combination of the two. When not bringing fictional romance to life, Sawyer is a chauffeur, stylist, chef, maid, and personal assistant to a very active toddler, as well as full-time servant to two adorably naughty dogs. She believes in the good of others, and that a bad day can be cured with a great work-out, cake, or a combination of the two.